2011
Looking about at 2011, another year with plenty of turbulents.
On work,
A lot has come to a stalmate. I have been with this company for 3 years now. The way the team work is still pretty much the same as the day I stepped in - messy, no system, fire-fighting everyday, trying to pin the blame one everybody except ourselves, telling lies, behaving like clowns with our manager as the circus master. I am absolutely sick of this vicious cycle. Our teams' business is growing and yet, we are still doing things like we are dealing with some some small time customer. I have made up my mind to leave this place by this year. I don't see myself going anywhere at this rate.
On relationship,
2011 is another roller coaster for me. I thought I have put A behind. But in reality, I haven't. She came back into my life again and things starts spinning out of control for a while. And that sucks really. It sucks even more when things were just about to turn for the better but it turns out to be a big dip into the ocean. Finally towards the end of 2011, it seems like the storm is finally over and it is settling down. I'm not quite sure where exactly we are heading but at least, we aren't sitting on a roller coaster ride for now.
On photography,
Not much progress. I have had plans to up my gear in taking more freelance jobs but it kind of like tail off thereafter. I had a few jobs at the start of the year and then gradually it comes to a point where I'm just sitting, waiting for jobs to come to me. Not exactly my plan. And to be honest, I have been taking less pictures these days. I hardly bring along my camera these days unless I'm traveling overseas or on official job. Getting lazy really and that is not good.
On every-other-things,
Getting old is part of our bio-logical clock and that is something that I cannot control. Another year has passed and another has arrived. Soon it will be over. Life hasn't been that exciting especially entering my 30s. A lot in life hasn't gone the way I wanted it. Not exactly fulfilling to enter 30s with this feeling. Well, life goes on. It is up to me to seek a meaning. I will be honest here ending off. I will only be flying again when I
O and not forgetting I have finally gotten my driving license in 2011 at the age of 30. Gotten my car in less then a week after passing my driving test. Gotten myself a 1 yr old Chervolet Aveo5. Not a common brand and model here in SG but I don't really care. It is the only car model that fits my budget. I'm a peasant and peasant don't get to choose. I buy what I can afford. I love Bee (name of my car, ya ya ya, I know I sound like a pussy naming my car but I don't care) so far. A little under-powered but then it does the job of bringing me around. Probably gonna drive it for another 2-3 yrs at least. Who knows I might just strike lottery ??
On 2012,
Stay fit and healthy.
Find a new job, possibly out of engineering. (I still love engineering. But here in Singapore, it is really impossible to do REAL engineering).
Find a girlfriend. The whole world is on top of me for this one. Despite her shortcomings, I can only say that A is the one and only one in my mind right now. I have asked myself plenty of times - is she the one? I'm clear on this. She is the one. I hope you folks can support me on this as much as she has left a bad impression.
Reach another level with my photography. I find myself stagnent at a level. Think I will need to have some break through.
Save more money.....
Strike TOTO/4D/whatever!
That is just about all. :D
