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Moving on

2012-01-25T10:39:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 years now that I'm with my current employer. Not everything here is as rosy I would like it to be and I guess it is time for me to move on.

To be honest, I like the environment that I'm working in everyday. The close proximity to where I stay, the free parking, my colleagues. Nothing much to complaint about on those fronts. But I have had serious issues with the way my boss manages the team as well as the heavy politics within the office.

Put it this way, my boss and I don't see eye to eye on certain aspects. We often had clashes during discussions and it often ends in heated argument. My manager often is unable to see and understand the technical aspects of what the team is doing and often insist the team to do some needless stuff just so that we can cover his ass. The team is often doing something that is redundant because of him and the end result is that we do not have enough time to do what is necessary to get the job done. The team gets blamed when things go wrong and he is always the first to finger point..

This has been our daily routine in office for the past years. I have come to a point of total disgust and decided it is time that I move on. It is really pointless to continue working under this kind of manager as I don't see myself gaining anything from it except becoming increasingly frustrated.

I have already accepted a job offer even though it is on a contractual basis. From a lot of peoples' perspective, it may not be a wise thing to do since there is a lack of job security. But then again, even if it is a permanent position, there is nothing to stop a company from laying off staff during bad times these days.

I'm moving from R&D to engineering customer service. Though I'm not all that new to customer service, still it is quite a gap for me. Something that I need to put in quite a bit of effort.

New year, new challenges ahead!

2011

2012-01-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

Looking about at 2011, another year with plenty of turbulents.

On work,

A lot has come to a stalmate. I have been with this company for 3 years now. The way the team work is still pretty much the same as the day I stepped in - messy, no system, fire-fighting everyday, trying to pin the blame one everybody except ourselves, telling lies, behaving like clowns with our manager as the circus master. I am absolutely sick of this vicious cycle. Our teams' business is growing and yet, we are still doing things like we are dealing with some some small time customer. I have made up my mind to leave this place by this year. I don't see myself going anywhere at this rate.

On relationship,

2011 is another roller coaster for me. I thought I have put A behind. But in reality, I haven't. She came back into my life again and things starts spinning out of control for a while. And that sucks really. It sucks even more when things were just about to turn for the better but it turns out to be a big dip into the ocean. Finally towards the end of 2011, it seems like the storm is finally over and it is settling down. I'm not quite sure where exactly we are heading but at least, we aren't sitting on a roller coaster ride for now.

On photography,

Not much progress. I have had plans to up my gear in taking more freelance jobs but it kind of like tail off thereafter. I had a few jobs at the start of the year and then gradually it comes to a point where I'm just sitting, waiting for jobs to come to me. Not exactly my plan. And to be honest, I have been taking less pictures these days. I hardly bring along my camera these days unless I'm traveling overseas or on official job. Getting lazy really and that is not good.

On every-other-things,

Getting old is part of our bio-logical clock and that is something that I cannot control. Another year has passed and another has arrived. Soon it will be over. Life hasn't been that exciting especially entering my 30s. A lot in life hasn't gone the way I wanted it. Not exactly fulfilling to enter 30s with this feeling. Well, life goes on. It is up to me to seek a meaning. I will be honest here ending off. I will only be flying again when I ~~find~~ gotten my true love again.

O and not forgetting I have finally gotten my driving license in 2011 at the age of 30. Gotten my car in less then a week after passing my driving test. Gotten myself a 1 yr old Chervolet Aveo5. Not a common brand and model here in SG but I don't really care. It is the only car model that fits my budget. I'm a peasant and peasant don't get to choose. I buy what I can afford. I love Bee (name of my car, ya ya ya, I know I sound like a pussy naming my car but I don't care) so far. A little under-powered but then it does the job of bringing me around. Probably gonna drive it for another 2-3 yrs at least. Who knows I might just strike lottery ??

On 2012,

Stay fit and healthy.

Find a new job, possibly out of engineering. (I still love engineering. But here in Singapore, it is really impossible to do REAL engineering).

Find a girlfriend. The whole world is on top of me for this one. Despite her shortcomings, I can only say that A is the one and only one in my mind right now. I have asked myself plenty of times - is she the one? I'm clear on this. She is the one. I hope you folks can support me on this as much as she has left a bad impression.

Reach another level with my photography. I find myself stagnent at a level. Think I will need to have some break through.

Save more money.....

Strike TOTO/4D/whatever!

~~Stop~~ curse less...

That is just about all. :D

I remember

2011-12-05T22:14:00.001+08:00

The time I spent with you.

Your laughter.

Your smiles.

Your little silly jokes.

Your rants and whines.

Your scream when you get excited.

Random

2011-11-29T21:28:00.002+08:00

Was taking a break from the photo editing.

Drop by to catch up with blogs that I follow. Decided to squeeze in a post here.

Bintan came and gone. 3 days 2 nights didn't do much help to my mood. Was feeling lousy all week and I thought the short getaway would do me good. But well....

Farked again

2011-11-24T13:11:00.002+08:00

When I thought I have walked out of it. Everything came back to haunt me again.

The same old feeling. The same heaviness. The same disappointment.

I don't understand why.

Why in the world you wouldn't appreciate when I'm nice to you and only come around when I'm bad.

Just what it wrong with you.

For 2-3 weeks you were lovely. Then suddenly you come up with lies and more lies. And you have to make me flare up in order to tell the truth. Do I deserve lies from you again and again?

If the truth hurts and then lies hurts even more. Do I deserve such hurting lies from you?

Hua Lun & Jin Xiu

2011-11-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

Selections from Hua Lun & Jin Xiu ROM.

Created with Admarket's flickrSLiDR.

fear for truth

2011-11-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

I wonder if it is the fear of facing the truth that is preventing me from confronting.

I like the way things are right now. But the reality is that there is an imminent need for me to thrash things out.

I know what I needed to do. But I just can't bear to change the way things are right now.

Whatever that is happening now could all just be a dream. And I'm so unwilling to wake up right now. Enjoying every moment of it. The more I enjoy the more painful it is going to be for me when all that is right now is really just a dream.

I keep giving myself excuses that I need a right time. Truth is there ain't such time. Any time is a good time.

So the question is when.

So whats your say?

2011-11-04T23:41:00.003+08:00

I say I can

- accept your skin problem.

- take all your attitude.

- wait no matter how long you are late.

- be nice to you all the time.

- be there for you for as long as you need.

- don't mind all your flaws

And then what is your say?

Throwing tantrum

2011-11-01T09:56:00.003+08:00

Bee threw tantrum when I least expected. Was out at Serene Center and about to leave the place when I realized I couldn't shift the gear from P to D. Thankfully, I have read enough at Chevrolet local forum to know how to do a manual override to shift the gear.

Phew...

More importantly Bee is still under warranty and I have got it fix yesterday. A quick 1.5 hours job.

I still love Bee despite the out-of-nowhere tantrum. :P

I thought I was dying

2011-10-18T23:01:00.003+08:00

Yap, I was so sick I thought I was gonna die.

It came fast and furious.

I was out in the day for a friend's ROM photoshoot. Was feeling ok throughout the shoot. At the end of the whole shoot, I was feeling tired which I thought was just normal. The weather was insanely HOT and I thought that compounded my fatigue further.

Got home shower went to the toilet to do 'big business'. I thought it was normal 'business' as usual. Wrong...

pfffffttttttt. Liquid.

I knew I'm in trouble. But I was heading for a much bigger trouble.

For the next 1 hour, I visited the toilet every 5 minutes. Yes, no kidding. Every 5 minutes. My asshole hurts so much that the toilet paper feels like sandpaper now. My body was drained of energy and I felt totally weak. It was like I am shutting down like a PC. I barely have the strength to walk to and fro from by bedroom to the toilet.

And I thought I could just sleep it over. Big mistake.

Lay on the bed and the next moment, I was puking. Couldn't even hold it so that I can puke in the toilet. I puked beside my bed onto the floor. Crap.

I was so weak by nightfall that I really thought I'm gonna die. And I couldn't even drink since any small amount will result in either puke, or LS. My butt simply couldn't take it anymore. So I have no other choice except not to eat or drink even though I'm badly dehydrated.

Interestingly, I managed to hold up till the next morn. Felt better and was able to make my way to the clinic for a jab on my butt for some instant relieve. Ok I exaggerated on the instant relieve but I do felt much better by late afternoon. By then I was able to eat something without puking or LS-ing.

And I wonder what the hell is wrong. Ate the same stuff as the rest at the ROM reception. None of them have problems. Only me. :/ Suay or what? arghhhh

What is so good about being good?

2011-10-13T10:20:00.003+08:00

Good gals get thrashed around like rubber dolls by the bad guys.

Good guys get tossed around like toilet paper by the bad gals.

So what is so good being a good person?

cheap & good food = overcrowding

2011-10-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

Where in Singapore can I find cheap & good tasty food but ain't packed like sardine? Am really sick of Singapore because there are hardly any place that sells decent food at peasants price nowadays. And when there is such a place, it usually is super crowded. Either you have got to Q for ages or the environment is so noisy that one would have to literally shout at each other in order to hear each other.

There are two places that I can think of that is worth mentioning. Though the prices ain't peasant-level, a little on the steep side but certainly the experience of dinning is worth it.

Azur at Crowne Plaza (Changi Airport T3) offers buffet style dinning. The environment is reasonably quiet to allow guests to chat with one another without having to shout across table. Food is decent, international spread. From Sushi to Nann, to Chinese herbal chicken. Staff are friendly and the service is speedy.

Another place worth mentioning is Brotzeit at Vivocity. Their signature German pork kunckle is something that I will order whenever I'm there. The sausages are just as good. Plenty of beer variety too. Environment is again decently quiet. I can chat at normal conversation level and everyone can hear everyone.

If you have a nice place to share, drop me a comment! :)

Illusive 11

2011-10-11T09:22:00.002+08:00

I'm talking about my fuel mileage on Bee.

Yes, finally for some strange reasons, my last tank of petrol worked out a a fuel consumption of 11km/ltr. For months, my fuel consumption has been in the high of 9km/ltr (~9.8 on average).

Drove Bee like a mad man over the weekend because I was part of the Brothers contingent for a good buddy wedding. Gotta commute all over Singapore and because of the fact that the bridal car is a BMW, I have to floor the accelerator pedal in order to keep up with the rest on the road. And I thought that will severely impact of fuel consumption.

But it wasn't to be.

I have read up on the net that drivers' experience with this model is that there is a need to drive it hard. Floor the pedal, get up to cruising speed asap in order to get a decent fuel consumption. I have experiment with this kind of driving but my fuel consumption went down to 8km/ltr instead. :/ Or is it that I didn't drive it hard enough previously?

Gonna try it with another tank of fuel to verify.

I love Bee!

2011-10-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

Thoughts on my ride.

Bee has been trusty. Bring me from point A to B without much grumble. Thought I wish it can go easy on the petrol but then again, there is nothing much I can do except to grouchily pump petrol every time.

Bee's striking yellow makes it easy for me to find it at carparks. There are hardly cars with the same striking yellow.

I still love to sneak a glance at Bee from time to time after parking. Simply love the curve.

And the best thing abt Bee? Hardly any Chevrolet on the road. There are so many Toyotas, Hondas, Mazda and what have you. Feels good to drive a car that is unique. :D

It takes more to forgive

2011-10-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

Seeking revenge takes courage.

But forgiving takes even more courage.

Insurance is just a grand scam

2011-09-23T09:41:00.004+08:00

Ever since I have gotten myself a car, I have been frequenting local car forums to gain more knowledge. There's a lot of info to gain from these forums, like steps to do in the event of accidents or technical know how of a car. Also, stupidities on the road are frequently highlighted as well. It can make good read and really helps in my driving in that, I bear those stupidities in mind and make sure I don't make the same mistake.

This particular accident caught my attention and it sort of reinforces my opinion about local vehicle insurance. The thread can be found here. The story goes like this. A Nissan GTR was waiting at a traffic light junction when this Toyota Vios came head up and crash into it. Point to note is that the GTR was completely stationary when this Vios came crashing head on. It was later discovered that the driver of the Vios was heavily intoxicated with alcohol which effectively lead to his disoriented driving and crashing into the GTR waiting at the traffic light controlled junction.

As a result of the impact, the airbag was released and the driver of the GTR suffered injuries to his fingers and chest. The GTR was badly mangled. Initial estimate on the cost of repair for the GTR works out to be $70k. It will most likely breach the $100k mark after factoring in the labour cost.

The drunk driver was arrested on the spot and subsequently charge in court. He was fined $4k and given a suspension of 2 years. No jail term. His motor insurer is discharging liability for all related claims since he was convicted of drink driving. Now the driver and owner of the GTR is left stranded. Of course he has the options of claiming against his own motor insurer for the cost of repair but that will send his renewal (following year) premium into outer space or worst, his current insurer might just refuse the renewal.

From the discussion in the thread, it seems that the driver of the GTR will have to pursue legal proceedings with the drunk driver on his own in order to recover the cost of repair and not risk his own insurer.

Herein lies the disturbing trend. Motor insurance companies are charging exorbitant premiums and yet does nothing to help the innocent insured. No doubt that insurer will pay out for the cost of repair but it is almost certain that when it comes to renewal, the premium will shoot through the ozone layer and into outer space or worst refuse renewal. Other insurer will most likely not take him for renewal as well.

So what is with the exorbitant premiums then? Going into the pockets of agents, directors, management in the form of fat bonus payout? What has the poor driver of the GTR done? Nothing except to wait for the traffic light to turn in his favour and move off. His insured is not going to chase after the drunk driver either because they know they can hold the GTR driver at ransom for his next renewal.

It is really frustrating for law obeying, considerate good drivers here in Singapore. These motor insurer will do anything to increase premium but does nothing to reward good law obeying drivers. And when it comes to claim, they will do just about anything reject claims or shrug their shoulders and pretend to be an idiot (like that of the GTR case) and will not assist their insured driver.

Drivers are like carrots to rabbits for insurers here in sg and we can't drive without one. At the end of the day, insurer laugh their way to the bank and good innocent drivers can only cry in vain.

Where's all the fun?

2011-09-23T09:41:00.001+08:00

Absolutely moodless these days and I wonder why. :/

Peugeot 207

2011-09-16T10:42:00.001+08:00

This baby is really tempting me to the max.

I'm such a sucker for continental cars. :P

Hazy days again

2011-09-13T09:09:00.003+08:00

Haze is back and I'm waking up with my throat feeling like Sahara Desert.

And this is like a annual event no thanks to neighbouring country who enjoys polluting the earth by burning off used field in preparation for the next growth.

Sigh...

Dull weekend

2011-09-05T00:13:00.003+08:00

Can't believe I was home on weekends slogging through those pictures and yet I have only completed processing 100+ out of 200. Sigh...

Air brush -> liquify -> clone stamp -> repeat.

Yap, that sums up what I have to do for those 200 plus pictures. Is really a test of my patience.

Oh, one thing I have discover. You can actually guess how much a gal is a clubber by counting the number of bruises on their legs.

Do they care?

2011-09-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

Had my first brush with reckless cabby this afternoon as I drove out to lunch.

Was moving off from traffic light when this SMRT cab cut into my lane dangerously to pick up a passenger. Thankfully I was moving too fast and had just enough time to step on the brakes else I would have surely rear ended the cab.

I probably ain't the first to complain abt cabbies and certainly will not be the last too. Really wonder if these cabbies ever care. Probably not. Reason is simple. They have to give a damn for the repair cost even if they do get into accident. The repair cost will be bear by the insurance company which is paid my the cab company. The cabbies will not be penalize except perhaps lost of income and rental in the event that they are 100% at fault.

It is about time that cab companies penalize cabbies who get into accident often. This will cabbies disincentive to be involved in accident and make them think twice on the road.

In any case, I have gotten myself a in car video recorder to be on the safe side.

And so Singaporean voted

2011-08-29T09:57:00.002+08:00

And so the dust settled and the winner announced. Tony Tan won by a meager. And it goes to reinforce what I have been thinking all this while.

The PAP is simply ain't comfortable having Tan Cheng Bok as the President even though TCB was once a MP with PAP. My take is that PAP wanted somebody on their side to be the President or they run the risk of another Ong Teng Cheong fiasco. So they persuaded Tony Tan to come out to run as President.

In order to ensure that TT has a good chance of being voted in, the elections department seemingly takes less stringent stand on the candidate's eligibility by allowing Tan Kin Lian and Tan Jay See to run for the presidential elections as well.

Those who-are-anybody but TT (read PAP) will now have their vote split between 3 candidates. And this inevitably eroded TCB's vote count. The final result of the voting shows this clearly. TT won by 0.34% over his nearest rival, TCB. If there aren't any TKL and TJS, I dare put my money out to say that those 2 candidates votes will go to TCB.

So in the end, the whole thing about Elected President is staged. A calculated move from the Government and in the end, Singaporeans are forced to accept TT as president.

Presidential Election Part 2 - The candidates

2011-08-22T22:45:00.008+08:00

Tony Tan

He is probably the most well known among all the 4 candidates having being in politics since 1979 and it was only in recent years (2005) that he stepped out of politics. Tony Tan has served in many various positions in the cabinet, as Minister of Education, Minister of Defense, Minister of Finance, Minister for Trade and Deputy Prime Minister. In fact, among the candidates he is the one with the most solid credentials.

That said, Tony Tan has on several occasions expressed is unwillingness to be in politics. He has stepped out of politics in 1991 only to be persuaded back into cabinet in 1995. In 2005 he again stepped out of politics.

Tony Tan's retirement from politics on 2 occasions signal his preference for wanting to be out. And this was further reinforced by the fact that he was one of those who highlighted to take over as Prime Minister. But he duly declined and the position of the PM eventually went to Goh Chok Tong. Therefore it is unclear why his sudden interest in becoming the President. My personal take is that he was probably persuaded to come out to run for the President because the rest of the candidates aren't quite what the PAP have in mind (more on that later).

Given his credentials and being a seasoned ex-minister, Tony Tan stands a very good chance in the coming election. He knows the inside-out of the Government, less likely to go against PAP's policies, though there are instances whereby he did voice his disapproval (opening of casinos). However, his close association with the PAP ruled Government can back fire on him. This is especially so given that the general Singaporean prefer a more independent President.

Tan Cheng Bok

Another season minister who has served Singapore for extended period in the Government. Tan Cheng Bok is a medical doctor by training. He entered politics in 1980 and only stepped out of it in 2006. He served as a MP at Ayer Rajah during his active political days. He also served as chairman on various committees.

Tan Cheng Bok wrote himself into the folklore when he voted against the notion of Nominated MP scheme. This is despite the fact that he is from the same party (PAP) that proposed this NMP scheme. And this is the first time that anybody actually voted against a notion.

During the campaigning, Tan Cheng Bok appears to be a softer, less vocal candidate. But that doesn't mean that he is somebody who just go by the flow. If there is a real concern, he will voice out. The impression that I have of Tan Cheng Bok is that he is more of a person who will sit back, observe, weigh all available options and act. It is pointless to talk big and promise big when in reality the power of the President is very limited.

Tan Jee Say

Prior to General Elections this year, I have little idea who Tan Jay See is. It was during the GE that he was revealed as a contesting candidate for SDP. Tan Jay See was an ex-Principal Private Secretary to former Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong. For a person with close working relationship with an ex-PM to join the opposition party, is a first of its kind.

Tan Jay See has a solid background in economics. Graduated from Oxford university, he once headed the economic strategy of EDB and was also a secretary to Dutch economist Dr Albert Winsemius.

Among the candidates, Tan Jee Say is by far the most vocal and confrontational.

Tan Kin Lian

He is a former NTUC chief and was also active in politics though his role in PAP was less prominent. After he left NTUC, he spent most of his efforts advising the general public through his blog on investments. He was very prominent in helping investors who lost money in Lehment Brothers linked investment. He came from a humble family and that may help him in his run for the President position since citizens would prefer to have someone who is able to relate to their hardship.

In the race for the Elected President, he is stands an outside chance of winning considering his lesser credentials. Besides being only a savvy investor, he hasn't have much to brag about. His inexperience in politics will also serve as a major obstacle in his run for President.

Monopoly Deal - Best card game ever!

2011-08-17T23:26:00.001+08:00

You can play it anywhere anytime with anybody!

Mount Batur

2011-08-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

The view from Mount Batur just around sunrise before my camera decides to throw in the white towel...

Presidential Election Part 1 - President of Singapore

2011-08-17T22:08:00.005+08:00

It is time for Singapore to elect the next President again. Like most Singaporean, I'm happy about it because it means an additional day of public holiday and not because I get to exercise my rights as a citizen to choose the next president. We all know how handicapped the elected President is. It is ceremonial role in Singapore's context and the primary role of the elected President is to safeguard the nation's reserve. That said, it still has a certain limited veto powers on Government's policies. That is better then none and surely deserve some time to examine the background of these candidates.

This is the first time that Singapore gets 4 candidates for this Presidential Election. So far, it is only 2 (Ong Teng Cheong vs Chua Kim Yeow) or a walkover. We have (in no preferential order) Tony Tan, Tan Kin Lian, Tan Cheng Bock, Tan See Jay. Interestingly all the candidates have the surname Tan. So what is in store for the next Tan as the elected President?

The elected President came about with good intention. As Prime Minister, Lee Kuan Yew and his Government decided that a President elected by the people be given the task of protecting the reserves. This is to safeguard against a rogue Government from raiding the reserves. And why people elected? A people elected President has a duty of care for his people. And if the President is not people elected, the rogue Government can literally appoint any Tom, Dick or Harry (puny intended) and still activate the reserves.

I have managed to google up this interview by the ST with Lee Kuan Yew. He more or less gave a summary of the rights of the elected President. And I will highlight this paragraph which puts the rights of the elected President in a nutshell.

Under the Constitution he has to act on the advice of the Government. There's no difference between him and any other other previous presidents. It is in the Constitution, he has to act on the advice of the Government. He can't make speeches against the Government. His address to Parliament is written up for him. He cannot act independently of the Government. He cannot act against the wishes of the Government full-stop, except when the Government wants to do things which he's entitled to block or veto.

Basically powerless except being entrust with a third key for activating the reserves.

My ideal choice for the President of Singapore would be one who understands the system well. Preferably a former Minister. Only then will he be able to work around the system and exert his limited power on Government policies. That said, he should be a person who has his own thoughts or one who could exercise sound judgement after considering all factors rather then acting on the well of the Government. A former minister will also be more favorable because the Government (PAP majority) will be less skeptical of his views. Otherwise the Government may feel that the President is out to go against them should he not be an former minister (read ex-PAP). And you will have a Government who are forever suspicious of the President and vice versa.

However he shouldn't be too vocal or confrontational with his thoughts. Singapore isn't ready for such open-confrontational politics. Let's face it. The elected President has to work within the Constitution. Even as citizens would like the President to have more executive powers to challenge some of the Government policies, it ain't going to happen unless the Constitution changes. If the next elected President is overly vocal with his opposing views and/or takes an overly confrontational approach in communicating the Government, it will severely affect the country.

He must also, exert his influence as a President in other areas like how the late Ong Teng Cheong actively promoted cultural and the arts. In Singapore, we have all the various agencies to take care of promoting whatever it is tasked to. But they did a horrible job in my opinion. I'm not saying that OTC did a fantastic job in promoting the cultural and the arts, but these agencies are behaving like a corporate and the people heading these agencies know nothing about what they need to do. The President can, through his influence, pull together the right people on the ground to push through the promotional agenda.

The elected President is still largely a ceremonial position. However the people of Singapore felt that the President should be their voices having elected him into office. Given the limited Constitutional power, the elected can probably exert a limited influence on Government policies. A balance of wits, intelligence and political know-how is necessary for the President to be the voice of citizens but at the same time, not risk upsetting the cabinet.

Back from Bali!

2011-08-17T10:46:00.004+08:00

Was expecting a relaxing trip to Bali but turns out otherwise. Water rafting for 2.5 hrs was fun to the max but the after effects was terrible. My back hurts so much that I could barely sit up from bed the next day. The trek up Mount Batur the next day was to add more punishment to my already frail body.

That said, it was still a very satisfying trip. Can't help but feel a sense of achievement having climb another mountain, though this time, a much smaller one, 1700m approximately. Batur is essentially a volcano. We had eggs cooked from the heat from the volcano vent at the summit. It wasn't really an enjoyable breakfast because of the fatigue from the climb up. Still, it was quite an experience.

Water rafting down the rivers in Bali has got to be the highlights of the trip. Breath taking views of the river along the way and lots of water splashing, spinning, tumbling along the way. Not forgetting the rush of water from the water fall as we stop for break and pictures.

Not all things went right though. My camera failed on me at Mount Batur. Couldn't resuscitate it despite my best effort. Think the shutter is stucked. :/ And so I was left camera-less and could only admire with my eyes and keep those breathtaking views in my head.

And it just get worst from there. My backpack which I have decided to check-in enroute back SG was tagged wrongly and was onboard a flight to KL. It was frustrating to wait at the belt to see everybody collected their baggage except mine. Guess my luck ran out and a check with Airasia's counter revealed that my backpack was tagged incorrectly. Fortunately, it was recovered by midnight and it was delivered back to me the next day. Kudos for Airasia despite the fact that they are only a budget carrier.

Pictures to come later though mostly are from others' camera.

Bali Bali Bali!

2011-08-06T08:14:00.002+08:00

A much needed vacation even though I was in Taiwan back in March. I am still on track for my personal travel quota of not more then 2 times in a year. :P

Will be on the plane in about 5 hours time. Not very excited for some reason. Probably because I have been travelling too much in the last few years so much so that I'm kinda numb.

Plans for Bali - water rafting, jet ski, bungee jump. Yes bungee jump. If everything goes well, that is the facilities, equipment and price. It is a crazy thing a lot of people told me. But still I need convincing from the facilities. Ain't gonna jump if the equipment are shabby looking or charge an arm or a leg.

Going with 9 others. A big group again. The same bunch of people who were in Korea a few years back and the first time I'm travelling with the same bunch of people again. So far, I have been travelling with different group of people. So that speaks a lot about this bunch of folks.

Stay tune for pics from Bali!

How am I?

2011-07-18T20:25:00.002+08:00

Kinda spin out of control for a while. But well the spinning has stopped and I have gotten my orientation back for now.

Moral of the story. It doesn't pay to be good. Being good to people, going out of the way to make them happy - what is the point? Some people simply love pain and crave for more. All I ever get is being taken for granted.

The sad fact of this world is that the good will be devoured and the bad will have the final laugh.

SG too safe?

2011-07-06T21:39:00.004+08:00

Is Singapore too safe that people take safety for granted?

Had my little brush with a ah pek cyclist earlier when I was sending F back after dinner.

That is where it happened. Turned into a small lane to drop F. Was negotiating this bend when I completely miss this cyclist. He brushed his bike across the side of my car. Thankfully I was going at a very slow speed probably about 10km/hr. It was a small lane so how fast can I go anyway? Furthermore its nearing the end I was about to stop to drop F off.

This Ah Pek cyclist was probably cutting across this small lane from left to right without checking the traffic as he rode across.

My car is the yellow box in the picture. By the time I stopped my car, my right wheel is just about on the divider. It goes to show I didn't quite encroach into the adjacent lane by a lot. He was coming out from a blind spot which is my front right vehicle pillar.

I gotta admit I didn't quite check and had that little assumption that the road in front will be clear except for a few parked vehicle. That place was dimly lit as there were no street lamps around that bend. So that kinda makes it even more difficult for me to spot any cyclist that might be coming out from the sidewalks.

In any case, that Ah Pek was still on his wheels after brushing against the side of my vehicle. He rode away quite nonchalantly as I look into my rear mirror immediately after that. It was only after turn on my hazard light that he decide to make a U-turn and came up to my side door. I wind down my window apologizing to him and asked if he is ok at the same time.

His reaction came a little surprise to me. He showed me his unhurt arm like it is bleeding profusely criticizing me the way I drove was reckless. I don't agree with him but still, I kept apologizing, hoping that will placet him.

But no. He was taking it out on me that I nearly ran him down and that if my car has scratches I would have blame him. Come'on, all I did was apologize and does he need to go way off the point? When he didn't relent it was then that I conclude that he was being totally unreasonable that I decided to counter back by telling him off saying that he recklessly cycle across to the opposite lane and he is at fault as well, raising my voice with repeated emphasis. He continue to blast his mouth off and perhaps he realizes his mistake and decide to move on.

Was absolutely angry after that. Despite acknowledging my mistake his ah pek is completely unreasonable. I mean what else does he want me to do? He is not hurt in any way. Probably a knock on the arm. Trying to extort some medical fee from me? At least that is the impression that I have with his unreasonableness. Besides I'm not all at fault in the first place.

Please people. Don't put yourself at risk! While driving I have come across so many cases of stupidity. Such as, dashing to cross the road when they see my car coming up. Cyclist not checking for traffic as they cycle across the road from sidewalks. Car belongs to the road. If you are using the road give way to cars! Why put yourself at unnecessary risk? Is it that Singapore has been so safe that people need to take these unnecessary risks to derive some cheap thrill?

You wanna die! Please go else where and die. Don't die on my car please.

i found but it aint mine

2011-07-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

I walked and found a ragged dull looking doll. Unique as it look I picked it up. Brought home, cleaned and found a beautiful smile hidden beneath. And I'm always careful not to soil it again.

But it doesn't belong to me.

The owner came looking for it. I've got no choice but to return. Though very much against my wish.

And I realized it gets tossed around, tearing the fabric, soiled by the roadside sometimes.

And I pain. To see something I treasured gets treated like thrashed.

Why do you want it back when you don't appreciate?

How does it feel

2011-07-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

To give tender loving care to someone you love only to send them to someone else to be treated like thrash later?

Do you know how does it feels like?

I do.

I wonder

2011-06-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

why there are people who enjoy being treated like thrash rather then being care, love and pamper.

Have life in Singapore gone too comfort that people need cheap thrill like that?

I hate it when the people I love/treasure gets treated like thrash. And yet they return for more of it. Why?

Or is it that people simply do not like to be love? Or is it that they enjoy getting the cold shoulder? Being hurt?

I gave all my sincerity only to be missed by all. What does it take, then to be seen?

My kindness has always been take granted and taken advantage. I hate myself for it. It is pointless to be kind and nice.

So fark it.

Understanding too well

2011-06-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

I understand myself too well.

I know what I want and do whatever that is possible to get what I want. And that perhaps is my downfall. For some things in life, we won't be able to get what we want or whatever I want doesn't exist in the first place.

Lydia Reloaded

2011-06-25T21:28:00.002+08:00

Too much

2011-06-24T22:57:00.003+08:00

There are times whereby there are so much in me and I can't seem to find a way to express it out and feel so trapped.

No avenue at all.

And it can really consume me that it affects my mood, work and attitude towards the people around me. More often then not, they will get some nasty stuff from me.

Hate this.

Love the way you lie - Eminem feat Rihanna

2011-06-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

Totally hooked to this.

When was the last time?

2011-06-17T16:25:00.002+08:00

When was the last time I was so relax and at ease?

Love the ambiance. Not too crowded and food was good. Small talks in between though I was doing the listening most of the time.

Simple pleasures that makes my day. Nice!

Been there and back

2011-06-13T16:02:00.002+08:00

I've been sucked into the black hole and had struggled for quite a while before I could free myself. And I came out of it scarred and hurt.

And I don't know if I can survive another.

And yet, I seem to hover way too near another black hole again.

Scared

2011-06-13T09:38:00.002+08:00

I thought my car was gonna disintegrate. Carpark at The Central was full so I had to go somewhere else instead. Was filtering out from the small road to the main road when my car literally bounced up slightly as I stepped on the throttle.

I was scared shit man. So was my passenger. I thought this this my car is gonna take some heavy damage. Either my bumper or my rear. Thankfully the car was still able to move without any noticeable vibration or weird sound.

Parked my car and went down to check. To my surprise, I did not notice any damage. Even looked at the undercarriage and all is in place. Granted it was dark already but at least I wasn't able to see anything dangling which is a sure sign of damage parts.

Still couldn't figure out what the hell is going on. :/

Unexpected

2011-06-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

One of those shots that I'm absolutely loving it. A completely random shot that came out ooooo.... sooooo... goood....

Model : Lydia

Styling & Makeup : Kemmy & Vivian

Photographer : ME

Hello Kitty Kitty Kitty

2011-06-07T14:19:00.002+08:00

Some girly stuff. But I have to say, it is almost near art. This is the Hello Kitty Sweets cafe in Taipei. A Hello Kitty theme cafe located along 台北市大安區大安路.

On driving instructor

2011-06-02T14:35:00.004+08:00

Guess I didn't talk much about my driving instructor when I was gearing for my Class 3 driving license. There's always a lot to talk about them. Their habits while with them during lessons. The most common being instructors sleeping their way throughout leaving students to zip around on their own. Some are super foul mouth and can scold from start to end.

My instructors were probably decent by all standards. I was enrolled in the driving school but did not opt for the fixed instructor scheme. But my lessons were usually at the 2040 hrs slot and so I will see the same person. In fact, throughout my lessons, just 2 different instructors. They were on shift so I will get either of them as long as I'm on the 2040 slot.

One is older, probably late 40s, slightly bald and wears a spec. Speaks ok english. The only thing I do not like about him is that he can be rather naggy. But other then that, he is patient and doesn't shoot his mouth off when I made mistakes. The other is younger, probably late 30s. Has got the 'ah beng' attitude. I prefer this ah beng better since generally he gives all the little tips and tricks on the road. Also, he always remind me all the potential pitfalls a student can commit while driving and what testers are particular about during test. So it is kind off like drilling me for the actual test whenever I'm on his shift.

In a nutshell, I consider my lucky because I don't have to go through a lot of instructors during training, which can be confusing since there is a good chance that each instructor will tell you different things. Some will say do this and then another say no, you can't that sort of stuff. Guess that is probably one of the reason why I'm able to complete the training syllabus within a fairly short period of time.

On the road

2011-05-30T10:56:00.002+08:00

Have been driving almost on a daily basis for quite a while now and it seems like my temper while driving is going from bad to worst. I simply cannot stop cursing and swearing while driving. Is it me? or is it that roads are filled with idiots?

Case 1.

Was at the cross junction of Yishun Central and Yishun Ave 2. Was turning right from Yishun Ave 2 into Yishun Central towards the direction of Sembawang. I was the 4th vehicle in the Q on the extreme right lane to turn right only. The red light came on (for vehicle going straight) and the green arrow came on for right turning vehicle. The 3 cars in front moved off. As I was making the turn, this Mit came from the opposite direction presumably (I thought since it was on the right turn only lane at the opposite side) making a right turn. But it didn't. Instead, it proceed straight and misses my car by very little. It couldn't have been a head on accident if it wasn't me turning at turtle speed and slowed my car just enough to avoid the head on collision.

Case 2.

Was going straight along Yishun Ave 2 at the cross junction of Yishun Central and Yishun Ave 2. This bloody Merz was filtering into Yishun Ave 2 from Yishun Ave 5. It just had to inch its way out to main traffic. I had to brake hard and blast my horn and swerve a little to the right to avoid colliding with this bastard. If I did not blast my horn, I would have rear-ended it for I'm pretty damn sure it would have force its way out.

Was that you?

2011-05-30T10:34:00.002+08:00

I wish I can have better luck at 4D/TOTO. But well, I usually have better luck in some other things rather then lottery. Sigh.

I had enough of the expensive and horrible tasting cafeteria food. Was pretty free at work last week so I thought I can do with a slightly longer lunch break. Met up with P at Raffles Place for lunch on Friday.

Drove down to town and was awaiting in the Q to drive in to carpark at Golden Shoe Complex, saw somebody familiar. And it just has to be her. Really wonder what is the probability of that compared to striking 4D/Toto. I tend to think it is comparable. But yet, the number of times that I have strike can be counted using one hand.

Anyway it kinda throws me off a little. Nearly ran down the gantry barrier as I totally forgot that there is one. Lucky for me I managed to stop the car just in time with the barrier a few centimeters away from smashing on it.

And I thought I have gotten over it. Guess not completely yet.

Istanbul - Six years on

2011-05-26T11:39:00.002+08:00

An account from a Liverpool fan who made the trip to Istanbul to watch the finals of the UEFA Champions League match between Liverpool and AC Milan. And what a night it has been. Excerpt from his personal experience -

"In the first half I can only really recall the utter dejection I felt upon conceding after only one minute. Was that it? Was it all over before it had begun?

This sense of dread and fear grew, as Milan raced into a two and then three goal lead. As a football fan, and a true red, I had to admire them, and especially the ball from Kaka for the third goal, but it just wasn’t meant to happen this way. This wasn’t what I had expected to happen. This was supposed to be our day, not theirs. My Da’ would later admit to me that he had begun to fear he had let me down – he didn’t think it was right that my first European Cup final should turn out like this.

At half time, I was astounded to see a couple of heated rows break out amongst people nearby. Divisions were appearing between those calling for us to continue to believe and those who were letting their disappointment get the better of them. In at least one instance, blows were exchanged, but the combatants soon saw sense and were embracing each other. I think they were simply looking for someone to blame or take it out on.

Utterly dejected, I trudged off to the toilet. This remains my most surreal experience at a football match, and I suspect it will stay that way for a long time. The was complete silence on the open air concourse behind out seats. No one was talking, nothing was said. Heads were trained on the ground and everyone was in shock. It was like a wake. When I was in the toilet I looked up to see that there was no roof, it was open to the sky. Gazing up at the stars gave me something else to think about, if only for a second, and I began to question if it might be that important. It’s only football, after all….. "

I watched that match on TV and simply couldn't believe it either that AC Milan raced to a 3 goals lead at half time. And I thought that it would be an entertaining finals but it turns out to be a nightmare for me (as a Liverpool fan) and potentially a boring match.

I contemplated turning in and continue with my sleep (it was 3am plus Singapore time). But I resisted and told myself to give Liverpool at least 10 minutes before deciding if I should just go back to sleep.

"I headed back to my seat, and as I reached the brow of the stand I became aware of the faint rumblings of a familiar standard, emerging to the left of me, and I suddenly became acutely aware that the game wasn’t actually over, and more importantly, that it did matter. I hurried back to my family, and joined in the singing. Holding our heads up high, we would not walk alone.

Nine minutes later and we had hope. A headed goal from our leader, and an outside chance at redemption. I wouldn’t go as far as to say we believed the turn around was on, I think there was more of a sense of relief that we had replied, that there was some fight left in us, belief would arrive later, two minutes later.

The Kaiser has the ball at his feet and rolls a pass to Vladdy Smicer, the wee Czech knocks the ball out of his feet and before anyone can shout “don’t shoot you pr!ck”, he unleashes a ferocious drive into the bottom right hand corner of Dida’s goal and the game is well and truly on again. The Milan players are looking around for someone to blame, and the stadium is absolutely bouncing. We can do this.

Four minutes later and Gerrard breaks free into the box, and is clipped by Genarro Gatusso, gifting us a penalty, manna from heaven. As Xabi places the ball, the guy in front of me turns to face me and explains that he can’t watch. I can. I can sense the net bulging already. I trust Xabi. He steps up and hit s a good penalty into the corner of the net, but Dida reaches it – has he not read the script? No matter, as Xabi wins a race for the first and possibly only time in his life and nearly takes the roof off the net with his second attempt. 3-3, inside 15 minutes. Pinch me, I’m dreaming.

I’m crying."

And what a second half it has turn out. And more excitement and drama as Jerzy Dudek save at point blank range from Shevchenko. And after a nervy penalty shoot-out Liverpool won.

It was a night to be remembered for as long as I live. For those who were there at the Atatürk Stadium, the experience must have been etched into minds.

Source article : http://thekop.liverpoolfc.tv/_Istanbul-Six-years-on/blog/3677874/173471.html

Denial

2011-05-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

And that I refer to the PAP. For the first time since the GRC system was introduced, Worker's Party has finally made breakthrough in this system having taken down Aljunied GRC. And in the minds of many, that would probably served as a warning to them, that there is a imminent need to listen to the voices of citizens.

But no. They are still in denial.

"Dr Balakrishnan said the election has been a good learning journey and at the strategic level, many PAP policies are right but their implementation and communication can be improved "

- Vivian Balakrishnan, 9 May 2011.

So 1 GRC is not enough to serve them a reminder. Not even when the total vote count for PAP is lesser compared to the last election.

I hope each and every Singaporean will wake up too.

I did my share in giving PAP

And I hope someday you will do your part to.

Quick note on GE

2011-05-05T22:57:00.002+08:00

When the opposition party doesn't have credible candidates, the current ruling party says they are weak and not worthy of citizens' votes.

When the opposition party grew bigger and better, the ruling party gives citizens the GRC system.

When the opposition finally have credible candidates, the ruling party suddenly realizes their mistakes and is willing to listen to citizens.

Dear PM Lee,

You have almost 5 years to acknowledge some of your cabinet's mistakes. You have 5 years to spare a thought and listen to what citizens have to say. You have almost 5 years to right those wrongs in the past. The impression that I have of your cabinet is one of arrogant and that whatever plans and policies your cabinet have crafted, it cannot be wrong. When opposition raised relevant questions during parliament session, you brush them aside. If opposition has been making a mockery out of themselves, I would have understand the way you deal with them.

Now all of a sudden, you have a change of heart. You suddenly can hear citizens' voices. You suddenly acknowledges your cabinet's mistakes and apologized for that, short of saying the magic word 'sorry' though. You suddenly realizes that your cabinet ain't perfect. I wonder why only now.

Your cabinet has always been late and lacking in foresight. When your cabinet decided to expand the foreigners in Singapore, you have failed to see the potential stress that the current infrastructure will face because of that. It is only now that your cabinet began work to widen roads, expand walkways, increase bus/mrt frequencies, build more HDB flats.

You are so obsessed with growth that you cannot deny that you have forgotten some other crucial aspects of this country. Citizens tried to reach out to you but most of the time you were in your ivory tower and when they do reach you, their words can't get into your mind.

If your cabinet lost substantial seats in this GE, then you have yourself to blame. Your realization came late.

Just some thoughts for the PM. But I wonder if he ever reads this.

Anyhow, on opposition.

Opposition folks contesting in my area have become better, faster and cheaper. Better because they know have a team of very credible candidates in their lineup. Faster in addressing urgent issues that affects citizens directly. Cheaper because they don't draw out of this world salaries.

Perhaps there are a lot at skate. But I for one is willingly to risk. Not because I wanted change. But after serious consideration and looking at what both sides have to offer. The opposition have nothing material to offer. But they have a heart to serve and a ear willing to listen. The ruling party has proven track record. A FM who didn't commit any mistakes and suddenly willing to listen.

Still, their rallies did not win me over. They lack passion. They lack fire. They lack the desire. They are literally begging. I have given you a chance, but you fail.

And so my mind is made.

I wish GE is held every year...

2011-05-03T23:21:00.004+08:00

Why?

Because rallies are like big carnival whereby Singaporeans, Yes, pure blooded Singaporeans come together in one solid pack. And they bring along such nice home made posters.

Reminds me of the crowds in a WWE wrestling match.

GE stands for General Elections

2011-05-03T20:43:00.003+08:00

So GE is coming and this will be the second time that I'm voting.

Not much has changed over the past years. In fact, it has been pretty much the same political landscape from that the day I can remember Election time.

The ruling party is still threatening citizens over the potential destruction of this country if they are voted out and continuation of carrots dangling, in the form of estate upgrades to citizens. Really wonder if these folks over at PAP have all the brains but lack the creativity.

The voices of discontent are ever growing. Country is growing at a tremendous pace. So much so that citizens are finding it difficult to cope with the pace. Some policies are double whammy for citizens, making it even more difficult for citizens. Singaporean are well known for being a complaining lot. But some complaints are really valid concerns and if they are not address, it is going to get worst.

Opposition parties have all along been weak except for one - Worker's Party. They have been organizing themselves, getting the right people to join them. And they have been making the right noises since the last election. Really hope to see them continue to grow and become a formidable party in the years to come.

For his GE, nothing much is going to change, again. PAP will continue to form bulk of the Parliament and retaining power with the exception of a few more seats going to opposition parties. And hopefully, a wakeup call to PAP that a country is make up of citizens, not PAP.

Only in Taiwan

2011-04-29T22:49:00.001+08:00

Folks with me to Taiwan

2011-04-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

These 9 youngster were with me in Taiwan. Lots of fun with them throughout.

We were up in the mountain of Alishan and spending the night at a nearby minsu. Place is called 53.1 minsu.

Out breakfast prepare with heart by the owner.

The owner brought us around his 'court yard' which happens to be a super big tea plantation.

JX and the owner's lovely daughter posing for a shot.

M trying his luck to communicate with Blackie, minsu's pet dog.

The minsu was awesome and very well kept!

More pictures to come!

Taiwan 2011 - Sakura

2011-04-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

Japan is not the only country where Sakura can be seen. Taiwan has it too! Though not as spectacular, but still quite a sight.

Lovely isn't it?

On driving on SG roads

2011-04-04T10:58:00.002+08:00

The word to describe is stress. Particularly so for a newbie (read P-plate) driver like me.

Somehow, season drivers seem to have forgotten how to use the signal light on the roads. And this is particularly irritating for me as newbie driver. I tend to have at least one car length in front of my vehicle but that only invites other drivers to cut in, without signalling. This caught me a few times and I had to brake head to avoid an accident. And then there are those grouchy lorries who seem to be rushing to hell. Zipping in an out of lanes and worst, some have faulty rear brake lights.

Enough of ranting, guess I just have to deal with silly drivers on SG road.

And I 'buah' my bumper again while driving into the car wash station. Sigh... Thankfully, it is only a minor scratch at the base and side. Barely noticeable when standing. I'm seriously considering removing the sports rim if this goes on. :/

So far, the car is ok for me in terms of performance. The pick-up is a bit slow, but once it gets on to cruising speed (60km/hr onwards) the ride is fairly smooth. Enough for me to move from point A and to B so I'm happy with it. :D

冲动的惩罚

2011-04-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

直到你转身离去的那一刻起逐渐的清醒
才知道我把我世界强加给你还需要勇气
在你的内心里是怎样的对待感情
直到现在你都没有对我提起
我自说自话简单的想法
在你看来这根本就是一个笑话
所以我伤悲
尽管手中还残留着你的香味
如果那天你不知道我喝了多少杯
你就不会明白你究竟有多美
我也不会相信第一次看见你
就爱你爱的那么干脆
可是我相信我心中的感觉
它来的那么快来的那么直接
就算我心狂野
无法将火熄灭
我依然相信是老天让你我相约
如果说没有闻到残留手中你的香水
我绝对不会辗转反侧难以入睡
就想着你的美
闻着你的香味
在冰与火的情欲中挣扎徘徊
如果说不是老天让缘分把我捉弄
想到你我就不会那么心痛
就把你忘记吧
应该把你忘了
这是对冲动最好的惩罚

这是对冲动最好的惩罚

Back to reality

2011-03-27T02:02:00.002+08:00

Just touched down after spending 8 days in cold cold Taiwan. Wasn't that keen to return considering the weather was just lovely, though at times I'm freezing as I have forgotten to bring along my jacket.

Pictures to come so stay tune!

Yellow is home!

2011-03-14T21:34:00.002+08:00

Finally gotten my car from the dealer and drove it back home last Saturday. Am excited and nervous for the whole week. From the time I have gotten my license to getting my own vehicle is just slightly over a week. Just can't imagine how I would drive my first car home on public road.

F and V has been very very very very helpful throughout. From the day we went down to view to the incessant hagging over the price to picking up the car. I am just so grateful to their help. F is about to deliver her first kid this week. So imagine how much trouble she it was for her. A big THANK YOU!

Drove to office for the first time today and shit happened. Front bumper got caught up by the 'wheel stopped' (kinda like a kerb) as I drove too forward assuming that my bumper is high enough and will be able clear it. Well it didn't and the end result is a slight tear. Sigh...

Tomorrow going to workshop to have my car service and also check out if the tear can be patched up without the need to change the whole thing.

What a week

2011-03-08T21:38:00.003+08:00

The most satisfying week of 2011 so far.

First yay of the week. Manchester United lost at Stanford Bridge. Further to the lost, Man U was hard done with a bad referee decision and that made Alex Ferguson fuming. So what comes around goes around. A lot of teams have been hard done with some poor referee decision that favours Man U. Finally the Karma arrives at their door step.

Second yay I have passed my driving test! It was close. I have got 18 demerits point. Any more I will fail. I was more relieve then happy to clear due to the pressure that has been building up during earlier lessons. I have been making too many mistakes during the revision lessons that I really fear if I can pass with my first attempt. Thankfully, the planets aligned and I passed narrowly.

Third yay, having just acquired my license for 4 days, I booked my car after visiting some dealer on weekend. It was an ad hoc visit triggered by F and hubby V. Am really thankful for V's help in getting the car with all his expert advices/opinion. The vehicle is a Chevrolet Aveo5 1.4A SS.

And this is my new toy! Gonna collect it this Saturday. A little nervous since I'm not quite sure if I can navigate my way back from the car mart. F is kind enough to loan me her GPS for the time being. Really owe a huge favour from F & hubby V. V has been giving me his advices like a real pro, inspecting the vehicle on the spot, haggling for almost an hour on the price and freebies. He is a real pro !!

Last yay of the week. Liverpool beat Man U at Anfield convincingly! Man U was totally outplay in all areas. Just when the gloom starting to overcast Liverpool after their 1-3 lost at West Ham, they managed to bounce back in style.

What a fantastic week. Good news all round. Wish every week can be this good!

Certified driver at the age of 29

2011-03-04T09:11:00.003+08:00

That is considered old in the context of this country. Something I don't quite understand myself. Maybe I will allow myself to defend that first. The primary reason why I didn't try to get my driving license way back when I'm over the legal age to get one is that I simply do not have the financial ability to buy a car. On top of that, going through the driving lessons ain't cheap either. It runs up to more then $1k for those lucky ones who pass on their pass attempt. For the less fortunate, could be more then $2k.

I have seen plenty of people who are certified drivers but doesn't drive one on regular basis. And some perhaps never in their lifetime. I'm a firm believer of doing something for a reason. If I don't need to drive and is financially strapped, I don't divert myself from other areas that requires more attention.

Anyhow, I have to say that it is really stressful driving in Singapore. Am really stress up during the whole course of learning and it is worst during the actual test proper. It was a huge relieve for me to get it over and done with. At least I don't have to get stressful week in week out during lessons.

Have been looking around for used cars online and after calculation, I have more or less concluded on Suzuki Swift or Chevrolet Aveo5. Both fits into my budget. Performance wise, I think it is more or less on par. Anyway, I'm not a speedster and I just really need a vehicle to get myself from Point A to B. Perhaps when I'm back from Taiwan, I will make a trip to car dealer to check it out.

Maximumly demoralized

2011-02-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

That sums up my mood right now. My driving test is next week and yet this evening lesson was full of errors. Granted this lesson was after a lapse of close to a month. Still I felt that if I am competent enough, I would have regain my composure and complete the session with minimum fuss.

First, turning right into another side road in the circuit. I was too focus on the on coming traffic from the right that I neglected those coming from the left. Bloody biker seems to be in his own world as well not slowly down. Instructor had to step hard on my brake to prevent accident. Boo number 1.

I have totally forgotten how to park the vehicle, be it vertical or parallel. Attempted the parallel first. Forgot to return my steering to straight after my vehicle is in the lot. Second attempt at parallel wasn't perfect either. Turned the steering late as I reserve into the lot. Need to adjust a bit after the whole vehicle is in. Boo 2.

Vertical parking next. I wasn't clear when exactly I need to turn my steering fully to reverse in. Perhaps I should have clarify with my instructor in the previous lesson. Interestingly, I still managed to park the vehicle nicely with first attempt. Guess what, I seek clarification on that turning point and I just can't seem to reverse in correctly! How frustrating! Can't seem to get it right. Either too right or too left or the vehicle is not straight. Sigh... Instructor kind off give up on me. Boo 3.

Eventually I lost my focus altogether and mount kerb on several occasions as I exit out from the vertical parking lot. My instructor can't be bother with that any more having seen enough of my mistakes. Boo 4.

A miserable session. I feel like a complete noob. Noober then a noob! :(

Strike!

2011-02-19T11:53:00.003+08:00

After almost 30 years of existence on planet earth, I have finally strike TOTO. But it is only a meagre $30 prize money (group 5) and I wonder if I have used up all my luck for the year just for this.

Gotta try harder next year.

The need to stop

2011-02-13T01:36:00.002+08:00

And by that, I mean stop spending.

Have been spending too much lately. Have got to curb those unnecessary before I run into trouble financially. And my imminent need for a vehicle in the near term reinforces that need to curb.

Lydia

2011-02-11T17:10:00.001+08:00

You will get to see her more often.

Am pleased to have her onboard. She has all the qualities that I'm looking for. Looking forward to working with her.

Work in Progresss [......||||||]

2011-02-11T17:04:00.002+08:00

So far it is going as plan. Most of the stuff are track. I'm making good progress with the administrative stuff - working on the design, payment, website etc. Though I have to admit that I haven't been touching design programming (CSS) for the longest time. I used to change my blog template quite a fair bit but now it has more or less stale at this current one except the yearly updating of the header picture.

Still, it didn't take me too long to figure out CSS and I'm making good progress. There are stuff that needs to be done but shouldn't take too long. The biggest problem is with models and that has been solved. On the bright side, I have managed to convince Cherry to hop on board. (Yay!). So now I have 2 person to work on.

I'm just gonna give out some scrap of info here and there short telling what I'm up to. Just keeping things in suspense for now. Stay tune!

Happy Chinese New Year (again...)

2011-02-04T09:14:00.005+08:00

Yap, another Chinese New Year. And it is getting more boring as one gets older. Spent the first day of cny at home. Only visitor was my second sis, whose entire family came over for the usual 拜年.

The little imps were dressed in traditional chinese outfit! Denzer as always with that 'huh' look.

Charlene is getting taller too. She went into Primary 1 this year. How time flies...

And in the early morning of the cny, Liverpool registered their third back to back wins as well as clean sheets. The win came on the back of transfers frenzy. The much adored Fernando Torres was sold to Chelsea for 50 million pounds after the player requested out when Chelsea came in with an initial bid. There was some rope tugging between the two clubs as Liverpool were unwilling to part with their star striker.

Relationship quickly turned sour as the player submitted a transfer request and Chelsea went back to Liverpool with the price they slapped on the player. Liverpool went out 'shopping' for a replacement although they have more or less concluded the deal for Luis Suarez from Ajax. The surprise came when Liverpool submitted a bid for Newcastle's Andy Carroll.

There has been so many players (particularly forwards) linked to Liverpool for the past few months but none for Carroll. So when news that Liverpool bided for Carroll, it was a surprise for all. At the end of the day, he was prised from Newcastle for a good 35 million pounds, smashing the english transfer record.

With all the news around, I thought perhaps the players might be a little shaken. But no. For the first time this season, they played fluid passing football despite having to work in an unfamiliar 3-4-2-1 formation. Confidence was evident in their play, such rarity these days.

New striker Luis Suarez was on the bench even though he hasn't been training due to delays in paperwork. Everyone was hoping Suarez will get some time on the pitch. And King Kenny didn't disappoint. He brought on Suarez for Aurelio 63rd minute. 15 minutes later he was on the score sheet, scoring right in front of the Kop. A dream debut.

The thing about King Kenny is that he is keen to employ a system that he feels will be able to neutralize opposition. A point he made with the weird formation against Stoke. And also the surprising switch in position for Glen Johnson to left-back. He is not afraid to substitute a player out even though he is doing ok in a match. A man who obviously reads the game well and do what is necessary to protect the game. For example, Raul Meireles was playing well in the middle and was the scorer of the first goal. Yet, he took him off in the 76th minute and brought on Jonjo Shelvey. King Kenny must have thought that the middle of the park required some new legs to run at Stoke's midfield.

Liverpool has witness far too many stubborn managers who refused to tinkle with the playing system and sticking out with their favourite unperforming player. Luis Garcia for Rafa Benitez, Paul Konchesky for Roy Hodgson. Finally Liverpool is getting a manager who is clear headed enough to do the right thing because it is right.

The future looks bright for Liverpool under King Kenny.

Chinese New Year around the corner

2011-01-31T09:39:00.002+08:00

Time seems to travel faster these days. Chinese New Year is just 3 days away from now. Am so not in the mood for it. It is just getting more and more boring with each year. To me, it is just another long weekend to look forward to.

Trying to find time to clear my room and finally was able to just that, partially though. Threw away some junk and wipe clean my desk and shelf. Now left my cupboard and some or corners to clear. Looking forward to the steamboat with friends this Sunday at my house. A bunch of youngsters whom I will be traveling with in March to Taiwan. Funny and nice people I have to say.

Festivities aside, my plans for this year are panning out smoothly so far. Whats left now is the execution. That will probably happen some time in April if all goes well. For now, I just keep things in suspense.

First win for King Kenny

2011-01-24T10:50:00.002+08:00

Liverpool seemingly does not know how to win when playing away from home. Winning just 2 of their 12 away games. The visit to Wolves at Molineux is always going to be a jittery affair.

But well, it turns out otherwise. Beside the nerving start to the game, Liverpool held on to the initial pressure from Wolves and began to play their own game. I don't think they control the game but they were composed enough to diffused the pressure and Wolves very physical play.

My guess is that Kenny Dalglish's instruction to the team is to hit them hard on the break. And each time Liverpool counter, they look very dangerous. Early shots from Meireles and Torres came close to a goal. The current setup under Dalglish certainly look more attacking and focus. A superb decision by assistant referee Sain Massey was key to the first goal.

She (yes, a she) has allowed the play to continue despite calls from Wolves defense that Meireles was offside when the ball was played through to him. Instant replay showed that she was completely correct as Zubar was slowed in moving up to setup the trap. Wolves were duly punished with the first goal for Liverpool.

Liverpool went on to score 2 more goals to wrap up the game. It was a convincing win. Anybody who watched the game would have agree that this is a much better Liverpool compared to the one under Roy Hodgson. And just how many times this season Liverpool has been hard done with some dubious referee decision - the wrongly awarded corner at Everton, the penalty at Man U, this win feels extra good.

Now I look forward to Liverpool's game every weekend.

為夢想

2011-01-19T23:13:00.002+08:00

不是因為我人好而不收費。我只是向我自己的夢想前進。。。

Return of the King

2011-01-18T12:24:00.002+08:00

Kenny Dalglish returns to Liverpool, taking over Roy Hodgson as manager. That has been what I have been wishing for when Rafa Benitez was sacked prior to the start of the season. But somehow, the board of directors decided that Roy Hodgson was the man to lead Liverpool even though Kenny Dalglish was the peoples' choice.

3 matches in the run and yet a win. 2 losses and a draw. Granted King Kenny is probably only a week in managing Liverpool. Whatever tricks that King Kenny has in his bag, it will take a while for it to ripple down to the team.

The notable signs after King Kenny took over the team, is the desire to perform. Manchester United played badly in the FA and Liverpool could have gotten a draw if not for some very very poor officiating from Howard Webb who is, ironically the best referee in the Premier League. Awarding a blatant dive attempt by Dimitar Berbatov. And then the sending off of Steven Gerrard after 2 legged challenge from him. Liverpool fought on despite being down to 10 men.

The lost at Blackpool demonstrated the dept of problem on hand. Torres seemingly is on the right track to be his old self, scoring a thunderous goal wide on right. But that wasn't enough as the team went down 2-1.

Against Everton, Liverpool started very brightly. Pounding hard on Everton's goal and was eventually rewarded when Raul Meireles power in a half volley. Somehow, Everton was able to crawl their way back and Liverpool was fortunate to be rewarded with a penalty after Maxi Rodriguez was brought down in the box.

It is absolutely disheartening to watch Liverpool play this season. Often I end up feeling extremely gutted. To a certain extend, Liverpool does seem to be lacking in luck as they often find themselves on the receiving end of some dubious decision from the ref. The problems with the team goes back to the previous owner who have laden the club with debts and that has limited manager is buying quality player.

Now with new owners and new manager (2 to begin with), hopefully things will work out better. Kenny Dalglish has the charisma and know how to win title. Though it is impossible for him to do that this year. I really do not understand why he wasn't picked up to be the manager from the beginning when he offered himself for the position after Rafa Benitez left.

From the performance of the team, I think Kenny Dalglish has brought into the team a new sense of confidence and desire. A man who is well known for success as both a player and manager. Hopefully it is a matter of time before his tactical wisdom filters down to the team. And the players getting accustomed to his style. As a fan I can only be hopeful and continue to support them not matter how gutted I feel.

Pass

2011-01-11T21:53:00.002+08:00

Completed the advance theory (driving) test is 10 minutes or so. Have been practicing on the trial test questions in the earlier two hours prior to the actual test proper. That is the benefit of enrolling as a driving school student. You get to try out on the test questions and learn the mistakes prior to taking the real test.

Hopefully I can book at favourable timing for my practical test. :P

2010 came and gone

2011-01-07T13:31:00.003+08:00

2010 is a year which I wish I didn't have to go through. A year that I'm filled with more pain than I can smile at. A year that I do not wish to have too much memories of.

Despite all that, I still find time for photography. Something which I can do without feeling pain and for a moment, empty out my head.

For those who has been supportive of me during 2010, I have nothing except gratitude for all of you.

As for 2011, I dare not think of it. Except perhaps I will be diverting my focus solely on photography. Get more shoots, exposure and whatever. :)

Wedding - It is all about others

2011-01-05T12:47:00.002+08:00

Or so it seems to me.

Wedding these days seems to be a show staged to please everybody except the bride and groom. Everyone likes to have an opinion on how it should be done. When the bride and groom have some ideas of their own, an idea which deviates from the traditional norm, parents and elders like to pull them back. Wanting them to do it THEIR way.

Seems like most people have forgotten the meaning of wedding - a celebration of union. The union of a man and woman pledging to spend the rest of their life through thick and thin. A gathering of friends and family to celebrate this very special day with them. A joyous occasion simply put.

Little known to all, my eldest sister is one of those who had the most unfortunate solemnization ceremony. She brought down to tears, on the day itself. Thanks to mum - an elder and parent. Because of her persistence in wanting some stuff to be done according to her way, defying it constitute to disrespect, she created a ruckus on day of solemnization. When we the siblings tried to dissuade her from her persistence, it only served to make things worst. Mum became angry, that the siblings are ganging up against her, like a revolt. Sis was crying her eyes out as the argument blew out of control.

What went through my mum's mind at the point of time, I have no idea. Isn't it the wish of all parents to see their children grow up and happily get married? Why in the world does she has to do all that and make her own daughter cry her eyes out on her ROM?

On New Year, I had the chance to cover a simple 'tea-ceremony' for a friend's friend. The bride wasn't happy. So was the groom. The whole getting-married-affair was sour to begin with. Again no thanks to parents. This so call tea-ceremony was a result of a compromise between parents of bride and groom. On the day itself the bride was infuriated by her dad because he wanted to do certain stuff his way, ignoring the bride's idea.

So another unhappy bride and groom.

I feel sad whenever I witness this kind of tragedy on a wedding. The biggest day of one's life and yet, because of elders' pressure, bride and groom end up less happy then they should be. Wedding ceremonies and dinner have totally lost its meaning completely. Perhaps everyone should just help the couple to achieve what they want, rather then be a stumbling block, especially parents.

Favourite

2010-12-28T15:23:00.001+08:00

This has to be my personal favourite out of yesterday's shoot.

Editing was minimum. Remove blemishes, even up the skin tone and that is it. She looks like a doll straight out of cam!

All time fav

2010-12-27T23:00:00.004+08:00

Liyun is still my all time favourite model to shoot. Post processing is so much easier. She was kind enough to model for me as I try out some new lights that I have gotten recently.

All shots were done in a home environment. Appreciate T & Y for allowing me to utilize one of their room for this shoot. They have been very supportive of me in photography.

Strobist info : 1 reflective umbrella high above camera center.

After going through the photos, there are some inconsistencies between shots. Probably because the subject was moving slightly forward (approaching light) and hence a higher exposure compared to those whereby the subject is nearer the wall. Something that I have got to take note in future shot.

More shots can be found at my Flickr.

Belated Merry Christmas

2010-12-26T01:10:00.002+08:00

A day late...

But better then never.

Merry Christmas!

Congras to Eimeng and Anna

2010-12-23T11:05:00.004+08:00

They have finally tie the knot. Am glad to be able to cover their ROM. And something for a change, the guys decided to have a go at the 'flower-grabbing' which has been traditionally reserved for the ladies.

Near accident

2010-12-15T22:55:00.002+08:00

My driving confidence is at a all time low after that near accident during the driving session. Was attempting lane changing. Did check that the adjacent lane was safe enough for me to go in. Half the car was already in the lane on the right when another car tried to squeeze pass mine to change into my lane.

So it is like a criss-cross. My front right nearly brush into the other car's left body. Instructor had to steady my steering wheel. And I made the mistake of braking and counter steering to the left.

Sigh...

Thankfully no accident but it was close. :/

Another side of it

2010-12-14T22:58:00.002+08:00

Was messing around with the processing. And this was a quite a surprise.

Comments

2010-12-14T15:29:00.002+08:00

This one caught my attention - "你好，正寻找一些关于济州岛资料的当儿，无意间发现了你的部落格。很喜欢你在韩国时所拍下的照片，各个角度都很漂亮，文章也写得蛮赞。更促使了我想去韩国背包旅游的动力，谢谢你！愿你在每一段旅程中找到快乐:)"

To Anonymous, I'm glad that my pictures are able to inspire you for the trip. Korea is indeed a beautiful country. Hope that you will enjoy yourself there too. :)

Over the years, my blog has gotten some really nice and interesting comments left behind by people whom I do not know. Really wonder how these people got to know my blog. In the strangest of the circumstances, I have even got to know one of those anonymous people who left comments on my blog in person. It all started with my Burberry's Black Label wallet.

Leave a line or two if you have any thoughts after reading my blog ya? :D

Eunice Ellice Fall 2010 collection

2010-12-14T15:12:00.002+08:00

They have finally launched all their collection and that gives me the permission to post those shots here. :)

Unreal world

2010-12-13T21:31:00.003+08:00

It takes a clear head to navigate the complexities of this world. And yet, more often then, I lack one. I am almost drained of energy but I have changed into my running gear. Perhaps the only way to eradicate those thoughts from my mind is be completely deprived of any energy. Very much like the working of a computer RAM. When the power is cut, the content of it is being erased.

Thoughts on blogshop photography

2010-12-01T16:22:00.004+08:00

The last blogshop shoot went about smoothly in general. We have utilized a small corner just outside their bedrooms. It was tight. Thankfully I had with me my 10-22. However the side effects are the lens distortion which I have to correct it during post processing.

Initially I don't have a very good feeling about this shoot. The blogshop creator will be modeling for the shoot and with all due respect I'm not very confident that I can achieve the look and feel that I was hoping for.

Despite the pessimism, after going through some trial processing, I was pleasantly surprise by the fact that the images aren't as bad as I thought. Some tweaking to the exposure and contrast was sufficient to transform it like as if it was shoot in a studio. What's left was touching up on her skin blemishes and cropping to taste.

The post processing was completed ahead of time. Guess I'm getting used to image retouching now. And since I still have some time on hand before I hand off the project, I did the collage for them as well as putting in logos.

The only thing that I wasn't too please about are the standard shots. The exposure was uneven and it would take me a lot of time to process it so I have decided to just stick to whatever I have.

I had some time on hand and decided to help them to create the watermark. The choice of font for their logo came from them. All I did was create the web address and pair it up.

After completing processing all the images and hanging over to them, I have to say, the end result was better then I expected. The fact that I have finished all the images ahead of time was another surprise for me. In short, I have no complaints about this shoot and I think the blogshop creator are please with the images as well. Hopefully they can continue their business and I can continue to work with them.

New project - Eunice Ellice

2010-11-29T21:07:00.004+08:00

Just completed another blogshop project and they have finally launched their latest collection.

Click on the image below to check out their collections!

Ain't no camera expert

2010-11-29T20:44:00.002+08:00

Having been doing photography for quite a while now, I am often requested by friends to give recommendations on camera models when they are about to purchase one. More often then not, I am just as clueless as they are.

I do have the habit of checking out the latest photography equipments that is available in the market. There are several reasons why I don't. First being that I do not believe that the latest technology is going to improve my photography. Being an engineer by day, I understand the limits of what technology can do. Our desire for better equipment is never ending. There will never be a day whereby there will be this camera that will be to satisfy our expectation. Second, my pocket ain't that deep for me to chase that latest technology. New model of cameras are being launched into the market about every 6 months for compact point and shoot. For DSLR, it is about a year to two. I am ain't that rich enough to keep changing my gears. Besides, every need gear needs some getting use to. That will alway be limitation and it is about understanding that limitation and working around it to get the best of it. When I upgraded my DSLR from 300D to my current 40D, it took me almost a year to be really familiar with it and understand its limitation and then learning to cope with it.

For those reasons, I don't keep track of the latest development with it comes to gear. Perhaps for the occasional read on new model being launch, some of the new features etc. For the compact point and shoot, I have to say that I'm completely lost. I can probably spill a couple of models, IXUS 100, GF11 etc, but I'm totally clueless with regards to the features and whatever fanciful functions that comes along with it.

Therefore forgive me if I can't give you a good recommendation because I really don't know much.

Vrooommm

2010-11-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

First practical lesson went quite smoothly except for the braking. Just can't seem to get it right. My instructor kept emphasizing on gradual braking but I have this tendency to step hard on the brake pedal.

Not the first that I drove a vehicle. I was a tank commander in the Army and I have prior knowledge in driving a 13 tonne armoured vehicle. Even though it is completely different between driving a motor car and a tank, the initial jitter went away quickly once I have a good feel of the acceleration.

Instructor was even confident enough to allow me to drive back from the center to the pickup point. Nice.

Many more lessons to come!

PIcking up shooting again

2010-11-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

About time that I restart my shooting after putting down my camera for the longest time ever since I have picked up photography. Since some personal stuff have settled and out of my mind for now, I have been thinking about what to shoot. Many concepts and ideas have been brewing in my head and now it is about how to execute it.

The last shooting was the blogshop with Mittsubelle. Unfortunately they have decided not to continue with it for reasons that aren't too convenient for me to reveal here. I was striking a good relationship with the model XR. She was getting comfortable with me shooting and slowly getting to know how I wanted the look and feel I need. I also was rather upbeat about their setup and prospect so it was a pity that some things didn't work out.

I talking to Nicholas about some of my ideas and he was also keen on those ideas. So we decided to advertise ourselves in one of the local online photography community forum. And that is how our next shoot came about.

We weren't really comfortable about this blogshop initially since we will be shooting on a TFCD basis but their use of images is gonna be for business. In any case, we still decided to go ahead with the shoot although I have to say I am not really that optimistic about the outcome.

The shoot went on smoothly. Didn't encounter any major problems except for my flash gun shutting itself off automatically after a couple of minutes. It was a brand new 580 EX II which burnt a big hole in my pocket. The hot shoe on my old flash gave way a few months back when I was shooting an event. Since then I have gotten the Nissin Di866 as a replacement but I wasn't too happy with the performance and so I decided to bite the bullet and went to get a Canon original. Since I got it a few days prior to the shoot, I didn't have the chance to read the damn manual and so I wasn't able to switch off the auto shutdown function. The end result is a number of shots turned out underexposed because the flash was off. Sigh. Other then that, the other problem is the weak batteries. Time for new batts!

After picking a handful of shots for processing, I was pleasantly surprised. Most, if not all of the shots turns out ok. In fact, after processing (read : touch up) it was in fact, somehow better then my previous blogshop shoot! And this comes from the fact that the model is less then ideal. Hmmm.... or perhaps my digital touch up skills have improved?

Whatever it is, I'm pleased.

Now that I have completed processing the whole set I'm just waiting for them to launch on their blog site before I start to post it up here for your viewing pleasure. Also, I think I can continue to work with them. Hopefully we can agree on a price.

Is it so obvious?

2010-11-15T20:46:00.002+08:00

I was having my regular facial session earlier. My beautician made this casual comment about me that she observed that lately I seem to be very troubled and disinterested.

For somebody who sees me only once a month to make such comment... There is no denying that the pass months have been taking its toll on me. But I thought I have conceal well enough not to show it.

Is it really that obvious?

How long before I can forget?

2010-11-12T22:37:00.002+08:00

When was the last time I blade at ECP?

Lost track. But I think it could have been a year ago or so. Ever since cousin JC relocated to middle east for work, blading at ECP has stopped. The last time was probably with A.

My blades were dusty when I took it out in earlier. Had to give it a good clean before I bring it out to ECP. Was there earlier then D but didn't have to wait too long for him. We went all the way down to the SAFRA chalet near the end of ECP. Hang around there for a while, trying some new tricks. I was trying to learn how to properly to my left. Some how, I just cannot turn left smoothly. Weird. I can turn like a pro to my right... :/ Ended the whole session Subway where we grab our Double Meat sandwiches. Nice.

Went our separates from Subway.

Pass by Xin Wang. Memories start coming back. Took a glance at the seat that we used to occupy.

On the cab it was worst. How I used to send her back.

Crap....

Undershooting

2010-11-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

Besides taking my camera to Beijing last month, my photography activity has really come to a halt of late. The past couple of months have been draining, both mentally and physically and I hardly have any energy left when I got home at night.

I do have some ideas brewing in my head for a while now and now that every has settled down and although, emotionally I'm still in a stage of healing, I think I can refocus my energy to photography once again.

I was going through the stuff on my Macbook, trying to do some housekeeping and stumbled upon a set of pictures which were long overdue. I spent the last week processing it and was quite please with the results. E and A are getting married in December (ROM) and I will be covering that so I thought it be a good time to just get my feel in wedding photography.

That is the bride and groom on their actual day. Love the bokeh of the 85 f1.2 L. I am contemplating renting a 35mm L or even an 24mm L for E and M ROM. I am still very much hooked on wide perspective and the wide aperture of the prime is tempting. hmmm...

Anyway, this weekend is going to be busy. A trial blogshop shoot is coming up. I have also gotten myself a new flash, 580EX II to replace my 550EX. The 550EX hotshoe was damaged during an event shoot and I was weighing between sending it for repair or getting a new one. Eventually I have decided to get a new one.

The 580EX II was true to it class as the high end range of Canon flash system. Though it did burn a huge hole in my pocket as well.... This new flash shall be used for this coming blogshop shoot and hopefully it is worth of my money. Test shots in my room was good so far.

Stay tune for pictures!

Random

2010-11-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

When the lights goes out at night, the space around me seems to implode on me. Pain strikes me most often at night. When I'm alone in my room. Either watching TV or just surfing the net. It can creep up on me from nowhere and start attacking me.

It feels terrible.

And that is followed by flashes of events that have happened over the 2-3 months. I often struggle to contain my emotions when it strikes.

Despite my best efforts to forget everything, trying to immerse myself with daily routines, getting around with my life, at one corner of my heart, the past still lingers.

And the worst thing is, I don't know when it will vanish completely and be freed.

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The football club that I support as a teen has gone into a terrible mess of late. Starting with the huge debt that the previous 2 owners have loaded it with and then trying all sorts of means to hold on to the club until their investments have being recouped. On the field, the team picked up a mere 6 points out of a possible of 24 after 8 matches played. By then, they were at the bottom half the league table, in the relegation zone.

It was disheartening as a long time passionate fan to see the club in sure dire situation. Every weekend, I am made worst by their failure to win.

And finally, (hopefully) the end of the tunnel is in sight. A dramatic 2-0 win over Chelsea is the best result that the team has mustered so far. Chelsea are the defending league champions. And to beat them at home on the back of 3 wins in all competitions was a big big morale boost. Torres finally gets his season going by scoring both goals. Both were superbly taken and reminiscent of his old self.

I haven't feel so light hearted for Liverpool for a while now. The win last night was a glorious moment to savour until the next weekend fixture. I really hope that this good streak can continue for a while. And by January when the transfer window opens again, the management can bring in a few good players to further reinforce the squad.

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I'm looking forward to my year end bonus. Who doesn't anyway?

My finances are pretty wrecked up due to some impulsive spendings. Crap. The good news is, I'm still surviving ok. Just that my earlier savings has been eroded substantially.

It doesn't feels good to see my bank getting less digits.

So hopefully the bonus can be HUGE and I can start feeding my savings again.

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Christmas is coming !!

Just about next month. How time flies.

And I'm wishing for a ......

Nevermind.

That is all for now. ;)

New toy has arrived !

2010-11-03T21:24:00.008+08:00

My Kindle has finally reached my hand after a long wait. I was riding on a friend's Vpost account so that the shipping will be less costly. The side effect is that I have to wait a little longer since she has to wait for all her spree orders to reach Vpost and consolidate.

In any case, I have been using the Kindle for a good week now. It is indeed living up to my expectation of a smaller, easier to handle e-book reader. :)

The Kindle form factor is really intriguing. At 19.1cm x 12.2cm x 0.9cm, it is definitely more comfortable and easier to hand hold compared to a real book. The weight saving is tremendous as the Kindle weighs only a mere 250g.

I was very excited while unboxing this new toy. Upon opening up the box, there was this instruction on the screen. At first glance, I thought it was a piece of paper with the instructions on it. But I was wrong. The instructions was displayed by the screen itself.

When I powered up the device, it went away. I was completely fooled by the e-ink to think that it paper. Nice!

I have also gotten the Jackspade case originally for Nook (another ebook reader from Barnes & Noble), to house my Kindle. :P I love Jackspade! muahahahha

Reading experience on the Kindle has been very pleasant. I don't feel much difference reading on the Kindle compared to a paperback. Flipping between pages can be accomplish using one hand and on top of that, I don't have to suffer from wrist strain. Reason being I don't have to struggle to keep the book open wide enough for me to read the page. Not forgetting there won't be any discontinuity after finishing up one novel. I can load in a few ebooks at one go on the Kindle. Gone are the days whereby I have to make a trip down to Kinokuniya. I can slowly browse online at Amazon now. Also, the Kindle isn't as loud as a tablet like the Ipad. When I'm reading on the Kindle on public transport, people hardly give a wink at my dull looking Kindle whereas an Ipad is just screaming for attention.

The Kindle has served my needs and far exceeds my expectation of it. I'm quite sure this device is for keep, and for a long time. Perhaps until the day, it dies?

What is it

2010-10-28T21:46:00.003+08:00

What is it that I need to do?

What is that I have not done enough?

It is strange that the only thing that reminds me of is only pain now. And yet for reasons that I do not know, I am having still find it difficult to let it go.

Why is that man are such confusing sometimes.

我現在唯一能做的也只能遠離妳。不再讓妳逕路我的心理。

Man with little words

2010-10-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

Yes I am. And yet, it is rather amazing that I have managed to maintain this blog for a good 5 years. In fact, it could have been even longer. I have deleted a part of my earlier blog. Probably a good 2 years worth of it for reasons you won't get to know. :x

Granted towards the last 2 years, majority of which are laced with pictures. Pictures mostly from my everyday life to pictures which I took during my travels. Still, counting the number of entries, a number of it are just text.

I have to say. But often, when I here in front of my computer, I ended up not putting my thoughts down here. I always end up thinking that what is the point. The problem still persist, I still feel terrible after writing down. I also question myself why I even want to write down something that is unpleasant to me. Why not just forget everything altogether, leaving behind no evidence at all.

Perhaps I am just a confusing soul.

I still feel the pain of it. And the pain can strike anytime and anywhere without warning. Memories of the past couple of months seems to be hunting me like a ghost. I can be in the office doing work on my pc and it just sneaks up on me, I can be traveling on public transport and it rushes into me.

I can't seem to shake it off. I can seem to cut if off. The only thing I can is to shelf it one side and keep myself occupy. At least when it strikes, it is less painful.

Perhaps a part of me still feels for...

But what good does it do? The only end result is pain... and more it. And it is only now that, with whatever sanity I am still left with, I have decided to walk away.

I just feel like have a permanent amnesia now. Restart everything from square one.

王力宏「你不知道的事」

2010-10-24T00:16:00.003+08:00

An excellent piece from 王力宏.

Lyrics and translation are within the MV itself. Nice.

I have watched the movie before. Not sure until it was until now that I am hooked on this song.

Anyway, changed into my running gear and ran 5km just now. It has been a while since I go for run at night. The nice cool weather (after rain) was perfect. Love the cool breeze brushing over my skin as I run. Kinda takes away the pain in me momentarily.

Not sure when the pain will go away any time soon.

Kindle 3

2010-10-11T21:54:00.002+08:00

The gadget that you are looking at right now is the Kindle 3. I have just ordered mine! Yay! Can't wait for it to arrive.

On top of that, I have also ordered at Jackspade Nook case which should fit nicely for the Kindle 3 too. Must read in style!

In case you do not know what is a Kindle. Kindle is an electronic book the features e-ink. It differs from electronics tablet like that Apple Ipad in that the screen resembles a lot like paper. Therefore, it is a lot more comfortable to read on a Kindle as compared to LCD screen like on a laptop or a Ipad because the glare is reduced tremendously.

I am not the big fat bookworm but I have been reading sufficiently for quite a while now, mostly on public transport while moving from point to point. The other benefits (my opinion) is that it is more portable, the Kindle is only 0.4" thick. I have ordered 6" screen version. I have the tendency to fumble my book while turning pages. So with the Kindle the experience of reading is definitely enhanced.

Why I didn't go for Ipad? Well the Ipad is quite an overkill for me. Besides a lot of the functions has already been fulfilled by my HTC Desire. Plus comparing the Kindle with Ipad, Kindle feels like feather (240g) and the Ipad a rock (680g). And lastly, I just don't like the closeness of Apple devices, having the need to sync with iTunes.

It should be delivered to be in 2 weeks time. Stay tune for reviews !

我们没有在一起

2010-10-07T20:59:00.002+08:00

This will the very last time that I will blog on this.

For those who has been concern about me, I'm thankful for that. But questions like 'how are you', 'are you ok' is not going to make me feel any better, except to remind me further of the pain that my heart is feeling right now.

I am NOT ok. That is the truth.

But I am a lot stronger and tougher. It is a dagger to the heart. But I will survive. I just need some time.

Bear with me. Help me to forget and not remind me of the pain.

Lastly a song to wrap all of this up.

從這一刻起我的心不會在有妳

痛

2010-10-06T22:06:00.001+08:00

非常

End of dream

2010-10-06T13:40:00.003+08:00

This is a very difficult news to take and I am not ready for it at all.

My heart is breaking into million of pieces.

And it shall end there.

No more you. No more pain for me.

付出了一切... 到最后还是一场空...

From this moment. I will feel no pain.

心如刀割 - 蕭敬騰

2010-10-05T22:06:00.002+08:00

This originally performed by Jacky Cheung (张学友). Music and lyrics by 黎沸挥. My new found idol Jam Xiao (蕭敬騰) sang this piece at his recent concert in Asia and I fell in love with it. I have been listening to it for the past few days.

One thing that struck me was the lyrics. It express my feelings literally through this song.

我的天是灰色

　　我的心是蓝色

　　触摸着你的心

　　竟是透明的

　　你的悠然自得

　　我却束手无策

　　我的心痛竟是你的快乐

　　其实我不想对你恋恋不舍

　　但什么让我辗转反侧

　　不觉我说着说着天就亮了

　　我的唇角尝到一种苦涩

　　我是真的为你哭了

　　你是真的随他走了

　　就在这一刻

　　全世界伤心角色又多了我一个

　　我是真的为你爱了

　　你是真的跟他走了

　　能给的我全都给了我都舍得

　　除了让你知道我心如刀割

　　郑伊健也有一首同名曲，歌词如下：

　　如果那天我对你说

　　请不要走留下陪我

　　你会不会还是

　　放开手不回头

　　如果今天我开口说

　　请原谅我过去的错

　　你会不会能够

　　接受我对你真情恳求

　　我爱你可是我说不出口

　　因为不该搅乱你的梦

　　你已经有了你幸福归宿

　　凭什么我还在这里奢求

　　哪一个男人不渴望拥有

　　一份全心全意的温柔

　　看著你想著你心如刀割

　　我还能做什么

China Tour

2010-10-03T09:26:00.005+08:00

A bit late on this entry. I have to admit that I am rather lazy to make an entry here on my blog. Lazy to switch on my Macbook, lazy to even just sit in front of my Macbook. On most days lately, I am just on my bed.

Anyhow, the show must go on! So here goes.

Back from my 7 days tour of China with my family for a while now. It is not the first time I am there so I am not really that excited right from the beginning. The last time my family traveled together was wayyyyyyyyy back. If I remember correctly, I was still in secondary school and we visited Thailand.

We planned for the trip to be in September so the weather will be cooling but not to the point of freezing. But well, it turns out otherwise. 95% of the 7 days there was HOT. Except for the part where we were in Chengde, other then that, the weather feels more or less like Singapore if not worst off.

The good news is that the bright sunshine makes for good photos. You gain some you loose some...

Just look at how blue the sky is. During the day, the sun is strong because there are literally no cloud at all. I am quite sure that I am 2 shades darker now.

The thing about touring China is that the country itself has deep history. And the tour is literally a cultural and history lesson. On most days, we are visiting palace after palace, shrine after shrine, to the point that everything looks the same. I was trying to keep track of the places we have visited so that I can come back and do a short write up complete with photos. By day 2, I gave up. I was too confused by then.

Even the trees are preserved and tagged. A green tag like the one above denotes that it is at least 300 years old. The ones with red tag are at least 500 years old.

And they can grow to great heights! Some have supporting structures built around the trunks and branches for safety reasons.

One would have a lot of distance to cover when touring China. The place is huge. Lots of walking is required even at just one attraction. And imagine we have to cover several of it in a day.

The one person who is recognized by 1.3 billion Chinese - Mr Mao !

We have the 'durian' China has the egg! This is China's National Center for the Performing Arts.

One of the highlights for me was climbing the Great Wall. The longest man made structure on Earth.

We were visiting the Great Wall on a weekend and the place was packed with tourists from all over the world.

A section of the wall on the other side from where we are. Not sure where that leads to.

The steps are steep and uneven. It requires more energy to up but 'scarier' to climb down.

There are many entry points to the Great Wall. You can google it to find out more. We went through the Juyongguan (居庸關) pass. Of the long stretches of the Great Wall, only those that are built closer to our times are accessible now. Even then, a lot of maintenance and repair works has been done by the Chinese government before it is safe even for tourist visits.

I have only managed to climb pass 2 guards tower. Still, the view is quite awesome already.

Most people are huffing and puffing as they make their way up. And that includes me.

One of the standard tourist attraction to visit is of course the National Stadium of Beijing also known as Bird Nest.

This was the stadium that hosted the 2008 summer Olympic games.

And some random shots before I call it a day here.

Buildings in Beijing have weird shapes and colors. Some are quite pleasing to the eyes actually. The reason behind all the weird shapes according to our guide is because of fengshui. The architectural shapes has been designed according to fengshui of the location.

The Chinese are great fans of fengshui. Almost everything in life has to have fengshui element in it.

Starbucks in Chinese. :P

And how can I pass by one without getting a cup !!

Random street shots...

Did I forgot to mention that my nieces went along as well? They were monkeying around most of the time, not interested in the tour.

At some point they started calling me Mr. Jiu. Questions they asked,

"What is Mr. Jiu shooting?"

"Where is Mr. Jiu going?"

"Mr. Jiu is taking our pictures!! Run!!!"

They have endless whys, whats, wheres.... But well, they are kids after all.

Ok, so thats all for my China tour.

Next destination, Europe ! muahahahha